{"id":2630,"date":"2014-10-23T21:23:22","date_gmt":"2014-10-23T18:23:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/dergi\/?p=2630"},"modified":"2024-02-22T23:16:26","modified_gmt":"2024-02-22T20:16:26","slug":"gurbette-gurbeti-yasamak","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/gurbette-gurbeti-yasamak\/","title":{"rendered":"Gurbette Gurbeti ya\u015famak"},"content":{"rendered":"

Seneler oldu Annemden, ailemden, karde\u015flerimden, vatan\u0131mdan topra\u011f\u0131mdan, dost ve arkada\u015flar\u0131mdan ayr\u0131lal\u0131. Sanki et ve t\u0131rna\u011f\u0131n birbirinden ayr\u0131lmas\u0131 gibi ac\u0131 veren bir \u015fey bu.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bedenin ruha hasret kalmas\u0131 gibi bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131 esip durur i\u00e7imde. Bana d\u0131\u015fardan bakanlar sessiz, sakin bir deniz gibi g\u00f6rebilirler. \u0130\u00e7im ise karl\u0131, f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 sert bir iklimin yurdu. Everest tepesinin zirveleri gibi.<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan bu durumda hem Allah’a olabildi\u011fince yak\u0131n, hem en sert esen r\u00fczg\u00e2rlara, en dik u\u00e7urumlara kar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fccadele etmek zorundad\u0131r. Dikkat etmezseniz bir anda aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131z kayabilir.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fczde \u00e7etin, ac\u0131mas\u0131z ve \u015fakas\u0131 olmayan a\u015fman\u0131z gereken bir etap vard\u0131r. Di\u015finizi t\u0131rna\u011f\u0131n\u0131za takarak b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fczle \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fczdeki engelleri, tepeleri a\u015fman\u0131z gerekir.<\/p>\n

Sizi bekleyen fakat sizin beklemedi\u011finiz s\u00fcrprizleri, zorluklar\u0131 yenmeniz i\u00e7in b\u00fct\u00fcn enerjinizi toplaman\u0131z laz\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Gurbette gurbeti ya\u015famak b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey i\u015fte.<\/p>\n

Dil bilmezlik i\u015f bulmak ve toplumla ileti\u015fim kurmak i\u00e7in en b\u00fcy\u00fck engeldir ba\u015fta. Bu durumda iseniz kalabal\u0131klar i\u00e7inde \u0131ss\u0131z bir adada ya\u015fayan yaln\u0131z bir insandan fark\u0131n\u0131z yoktur. Siz onlara bir canl\u0131 gibi cans\u0131z cans\u0131z bakars\u0131n\u0131z, onlar da size.<\/p>\n

\u0130nsanlar\u0131n sizinle konu\u015fmas\u0131ndan korkars\u0131n\u0131z, siz onlarla konu\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z i\u00e7in kendi yabanc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n fark\u0131na var\u0131r, \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. Bunu her alanda i\u00e7inizde derin bir s\u0131z\u0131 olarak hissedersiniz. Ama kalabal\u0131klar bu ac\u0131n\u0131n fark\u0131nda de\u011fildir. Sizin kalabal\u0131klar i\u00e7indeki yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u015fiddetli bir ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 gibi vurur ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za.<\/p>\n

Sonra, bu engeli a\u015fmak i\u00e7in kollar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 s\u0131vamak zorunda oldu\u011funuzu anlars\u0131n\u0131z. Daha sonra da i\u015f bulmak, ge\u00e7iminizi sa\u011flamak i\u00e7in en \u00f6nemli bir ad\u0131m\u0131 atmak zorunda kal\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. O olmazsa olmaz bir \u015fart gurbette.<\/p>\n

Gurbette paras\u0131z pulsuz kalsan\u0131z, a\u00e7 susuz kalsan\u0131z, a\u00e7l\u0131ktan \u00f6lseniz kimsenin ruhu duymaz. Cebinizin bo\u015flu\u011funun a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z siz hisseder, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z siz \u00e7ekersiniz. Zaman gelir bu a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131k sizi diz \u00fcst\u00fc bile \u00e7\u00f6kertebilir.<\/p>\n

Sizi anlayacak belki hi\u00e7 kimse yoktur. Belki yok denecek kadar insan vard\u0131r. O zaman i\u015fte kalabal\u0131klar i\u00e7indeki yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n dayan\u0131lmaz girdab\u0131 i\u00e7inde bo\u011fulmamak i\u00e7in var g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fczle \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n

Do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst arkada\u015f ve \u00e7evre edinmek gelir daha sonra. Onlar\u0131 bulunca k\u0131rk y\u0131ll\u0131k dost ve tan\u0131d\u0131k gibi onlarla bir oldu\u011funuz anlar\u0131n tad\u0131 dama\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda kal\u0131r. Bir daha ki bulu\u015fmay\u0131, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmeyi heyecanla beklersiniz.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara ra\u011fmen anneniz, baban\u0131z, aileniz ve sevdikleriniz g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fczde t\u00fcter. Vatan ve toprak hasreti tarif edilmez bir duygudur insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Hasret insan\u0131n dudaklar\u0131nda her g\u00fcn tekrarlanan dervi\u015flerin \u00e7ekti\u011fi bir vird gibidir.<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan\u0131na g\u00f6re de\u011fi\u015fir bu da. Baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n ki zikri hafiye benzer i\u00e7ten i\u00e7e kaynayan bir magma gibi fokurdar insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Baz\u0131lar\u0131na y\u00fckseklerden d\u00f6k\u00fclen bir \u015felale gibidir, \u00e7a\u011flar durur her g\u00fcn insan\u0131n dilinde.<\/p>\n

Gurbet, en \u00e7ok bayramlarda insan\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fine oturur. \u0130nsan g\u00f6rmek, sar\u0131lmak, ellerini \u00f6pmek, koklamak istediklerinin yak\u0131n\u0131nda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark etti\u011finde i\u00e7indeki o dipsiz buruklu\u011fu ve bo\u015flu\u011fu hisseder. Derin bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn gibi \u00e7\u00f6ker bu bo\u015fluk insan\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011fine. Yank\u0131s\u0131 g\u00fcnlerce insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde dinmeyen bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn dalgas\u0131, dalga dalga yay\u0131l\u0131r h\u00fccrelerine.<\/p>\n

Bu gurbetin insan\u0131 ku\u015fatmas\u0131 ve vakumlamas\u0131d\u0131r adeta. Bu ku\u015fatma ”Ben buraya ait de\u011filim\u2019\u2019 demektir. Yabanc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 kolsuz bir h\u0131rka olarak s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131za al\u0131r, b\u00f6yle ya\u015faman\u0131n \u015fartlar\u0131na al\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z kendinizi.<\/p>\n

Bayramlarda herkes sevinirken siz de sevinir g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. Ama i\u00e7inizde uyanan bir his, sessizce<\/p>\n

”Bayram geldi neyime anam anam garibim<\/p>\n

Kan damlar y\u00fcre\u011fime anam anam garibim\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n

t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0131r\u0131ldar. Ruhunuzun en derin vadilerinde yank\u0131 bulan bu sesi d\u0131\u015farda kimse duymaz, ama siz hem s\u00f6yler hem dinler hem de hissedersiniz. Kimse bilmez gurbetin sizi ta y\u00fcre\u011finizden vurdu\u011funu. Kimse bilmez sizin yaral\u0131 bir ceylan oldu\u011funuzu.<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcre\u011finden \u0131l\u0131k \u0131l\u0131k kan s\u0131zan yaral\u0131 bir ceylan gibi dola\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z \u015fehrin sokaklar\u0131nda bir hayalet gibi. \u0130nsanlar, caddeler, sokaklar, meydanlar duymaz sesinizi. Kimse bilmez\/bilemez halinizi. Benden ba\u015fka kimse anlamaz sizi.<\/p>\n

\u00a0Arif Altunba\u015f, www.yorum-online.de<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Seneler oldu Annemden, ailemden, karde\u015flerimden, vatan\u0131mdan topra\u011f\u0131mdan, dost ve arkada\u015flar\u0131mdan ayr\u0131lal\u0131. Sanki et ve t\u0131rna\u011f\u0131n birbirinden ayr\u0131lmas\u0131 gibi ac\u0131 veren bir \u015fey bu. Bedenin ruha hasret kalmas\u0131 gibi bir h\u00fcz\u00fcn f\u0131rt\u0131nas\u0131 esip durur i\u00e7imde. Bana d\u0131\u015fardan bakanlar sessiz, sakin bir deniz gibi g\u00f6rebilirler. \u0130\u00e7im ise karl\u0131, f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 sert bir iklimin yurdu. Everest tepesinin zirveleri gibi. …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":31,"featured_media":48521,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_themeisle_gutenberg_block_has_review":false,"_joinchat":[],"footnotes":""},"categories":[39],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2630","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","","category-tarih"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2630","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/31"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2630"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2630\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/48521"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2630"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2630"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/akincilardergisi.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2630"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}